It's rather upsetting to know that I am so addicted to Joshua that I cannot function without having him around or knowing what he is doing. I feel so sad when he isn't around and we can't talk or whatever... He's been on leave since Thursday and goes back on Monday. Because he's been gone though, we haven't been able to video chat since Wednesday night. We still talk but I miss seeing his face and getting to see his smile as we discuss our day. It's just not the same over the phone.
So apparently his sister is engaged but not engaged. In other words, they've set a date for their wedding but they aren't actually engaged because they don't want to steal the limelight from Josh and I. Which I kinda get but think is very silly. Unless they're getting married like a year after Josh and I, we're going to be sharing the limelight together. That's just the way it is. I guess I'm lucky in that I don't have to worry about that considering none of my siblings are "on the market," as it were. Susan won't get married until she finishes medical school (2015), Adrian (if he goes to USNA) can't get married until 2017, Allison doesn't graduate high school until 2014 and probably won't marry until after college...and Ian, Ian graduates high school in 2016. Which means none of my siblings will be getting married until probably at least two years after me. I guess I'm lucky in that way.
I completely restarted my wedding planning. Same date, time, location, etc but I decided that I didn't like trying to do what other people wanted and am trying to do what I want instead. That means that I have been starting over with wedding plans working on a proper theme that I really like. And here it is: a forest. Our colors are blue, green and purple - like sage (or mint), sky blue and lavender. I want it to invoke a peaceful forest meadow with trees and a cloudless sky. With small purple flowers poking out amongst the mosses at the roots of the trees.
And that's the way it is.
I miss Josh. 11 days.
So apparently his sister is engaged but not engaged. In other words, they've set a date for their wedding but they aren't actually engaged because they don't want to steal the limelight from Josh and I. Which I kinda get but think is very silly. Unless they're getting married like a year after Josh and I, we're going to be sharing the limelight together. That's just the way it is. I guess I'm lucky in that I don't have to worry about that considering none of my siblings are "on the market," as it were. Susan won't get married until she finishes medical school (2015), Adrian (if he goes to USNA) can't get married until 2017, Allison doesn't graduate high school until 2014 and probably won't marry until after college...and Ian, Ian graduates high school in 2016. Which means none of my siblings will be getting married until probably at least two years after me. I guess I'm lucky in that way.
I completely restarted my wedding planning. Same date, time, location, etc but I decided that I didn't like trying to do what other people wanted and am trying to do what I want instead. That means that I have been starting over with wedding plans working on a proper theme that I really like. And here it is: a forest. Our colors are blue, green and purple - like sage (or mint), sky blue and lavender. I want it to invoke a peaceful forest meadow with trees and a cloudless sky. With small purple flowers poking out amongst the mosses at the roots of the trees.
And that's the way it is.
I miss Josh. 11 days.
