I miss Joshua so much.  There are many times when I really just want someone to talk to, someone to hug, someone to snuggle with, etc and he's not around.  When I want to go drinking, he's not here.  When I want to get coffee, he's not here.  When I want to go driving, he's not here.  When I want to go to the mall in Lone Tree, he's not here.  When I want to sleep in on the weekends, he's not here.  When I want to stay in bed on cold, snowy days with hot chocolate and a book, he's not here.  When I want to watch romances, he's not here.  When I want to watch action movies, he's not here.  When I want to kiss someone, he's not here.

He's not here.

Having to be away from him is terrible.  I don't know how I will survive when he deploys if I can barely manage when we're separated for the ten weeks it has been so far.  It will have been 13 weeks when I see him again.  It's amazing to know I'll see him in three weeks but it's just difficult having to be away from him.

I just want him here with me.

Soon.

I graduate in 254 days which means in 257 days, I will be his wife.