MERRY CHRISTMAS!

I am back home :)

It's going to be a fun break - I can tell already. I've watched a ton of movies, read, ran and knitted. Plus, I've organized a sleepover for the Three Musketeers. I need to go shopping for Christmas gifts but am less inclined to do so considering my papa sold our standard transmission vehicle and I don't really feel like driving an automatic.

My room is kinda a mess because I pretty much dumped all of my stuff on the ground. I'll need to figure out how to pack it back up by next weekend.

My daddy arranged for me to take a limo to the airport on Sunday, 26 Dec. Yay! I love limos soooooo much :) And it's all for me and me alone... I love it all...

Botswana will be fun, I hope.

Rocked my Comp Sci final. I handed it to the Dean on that one hahaha...

Not so sure about the physics one. I know I messed up one problem and I know I aced another so idk... I'm calling it a tie.

Tomorrow I have reveille CQ and then laundry followed by the gym and a Christmas party at some point.

Monday is Law in the morning and Engr Mech in the afternoon.

Tuesday is Econ in the morning and Operations Research in the afternoon.

And then I leave. :)

Packing up my room - so much fun! (not)

I love jamming out to techno music - it makes me super happy. I should work out to it - I think I'd feel more inclined to work out if I were doing it to Basshunter hahaha

Finals coming up :)

Comp Sci and Physics on Saturday.

Engr Mech and Law on Monday.

Econ and OR on Tuesday.

Fly home on Wednesday.

Life is good.

At home on Thanksgiving leave. Went for a 2.5 mile run yesterday - very fun. No running today for Thanksgiving but I'll probably run every other day of leave. It's just a bit too cold to run at USAFA right now...depressing, I know. I wish it would snow...ugh.

I finished reading Sphere the other day and am now watching the movie as well as reading The Matarese Circle. Went and saw "Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 1" last night with the family. It was really good - I can't wait for the second part to come out. :)

Need to hang out with Hannah and Sarah sometime this weekend - probably Saturday but idk when we will

Painted my nails this morning for funsies and am now just chilling, surfing the net, drinking coffee and waiting for Thanksgiving dinner in 4 hours. yay....

So...things are going along nicely at USAFA. I'm almost finished for Thanksgiving break. I have two classes left and then I'm peacing out. I have to finish my EM report and turn it in tomorrow during first period or give it to Josh to turn in during a later period...haven't decided yet. I guess it depends on how much I'm packed. I haven't checked in to my flight yet but I'm probably not going to. I thought about it but I have to go up to the counter anyway to check my luggage soo...yeah, might as well just do it there.

Break is going to be good but I have a feeling I'm going to be slightly overwhelmed when I get back so I'm trying to get some stuff done. I know I have a paper to write on break and some work in Comp Sci but a) Comp Sci is not a big deal and b) the paper shouldn't take long. In fact, I can probably write the paper on my flight for the most part... It'll be an interesting trip to be sure. I can't wait to return - especially cause Daddy said he'd work with me on driving standard.

Which is a nice segue into Dan hahaha... He said if he can find another standard he'll teach me to heel-toe, double clutch, pop the clutch, and basically all the racing techniques. Makes me happy cause I love that sort of stuff. I'm definitely excited to drive standard more often - I kinda pretty much love it and I've only done it once :) Totally wore long-sleeve blues today. It's chillyish but nice out. As Dan would say, "It smells like Christmas."

I need to go shopping for Christmas gifts and more than that, I need the money I transferred into the USAA account from ING to actually go through... ugh. It takes waaaay too long. So frustrating... I have theatre tickets to buy...

Laundry day at USAFA. I actually quite enjoy doing laundry here. Especially because I can sit here and smell the lovely smells, relax, watch movies and wait for my laundry to finish. It's all done now but I'm still sitting here...amazing.

I woke up this morning and decided to head out with Dan to go chill. He was making breakfast for his squadron so we couldn't go just yet. But when he finished we headed to Garden of the Gods. We went off the well-beaten path and started wandering through the rocks. After looking around a lot, we found a branch that had fallen horizontally over the edge of a cliff and sat on it. My legs dangled and I felt like a little girl again. It was pretty much amazing and I had a blast. I'm pretty sure we sat on that log for about an hour watching it snow and just sitting there... We talked, laughed and had an awesome time. :) I had almost the best time ever...

On the way back from Garden of the Gods, we stopped for lunch, which he insisted he buy for me. :) I had an amazing time there and then we had to come back so he could sit CQ. I turned on a movie and went to do my laundry.

My hair is so dark right now becuase I dyed it again and it's always super dark on the first day but it'll lighten up soon. Only twenty-five minutes left in my movie and then I shall get my laundry, return to my room, do my EngrMech prelab, work on my Law Mock Trial case, watch a Worlds' Debate and study some for my Econ GR next week.

To Do:

1) EM PreLab

2) Worlds' Debate Practice

3) OR HW15

4) Physics HW

5) Read "The Nine"

6) Read Mock Trial information

7) EM Beam Loading Design

8) EM Final Report preparation

9) OR HW16

10) CS211 PEX 3 work

Jeff is reading my blog.

Weirdo.

On my mind.

Oh I had a lot to say, was thinking on my time away
I missed you and things weren't the same
'Cause everything inside it never comes out right
And when I see you cry, it makes me want to die

I'm sorry I'm bad, I'm sorry you're blue
I'm sorry about all things I said to you
And I know, I cant take it back.
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds
And baby, the way you make my world go round
And I just wanted to say, I'm sorry

This time I think, I'm to blame
It's harder to get through the days
You get older and blame turns to shame
'Cause everything inside it never comes out right
And when I see you cry, it makes me want to die

I'm sorry I'm bad, I'm sorry you're blue
I'm sorry about all things I said to you

And I know, I cant take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds
And baby, the way you make my world go round
And I just wanted to say, I'm sorry

Every single day, I think about how we came all this way
The sleepless nights and the tears you cried
It's never too late to make it right
Oh yeah

Sorry
I'm sorry I'm bad, I'm sorry you're blue
I'm sorry about all things I said to you
And I know, I cant take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds
And baby, the way you make my world go round
And I just wanted to say, I'm sorry

At debate practice.

I was supposed to go on a retreat this weekend with Officers' Christian Fellowship but can't any more. It was all great until I realized how much homework I had and now I'm not going lol. I have so much work to do that I really should just get on and do it...

Here's my To-Do List:

• Laundry
• EngrMech homework
• EM GR prep
• Law paper
• Comp Sci prep
• Operations Research group project
• EM group project
• Return jacket to walmart
• Go for a run
• Practice my golf swing
• Research juvenile court education
• Straight No Chaser
• Physics GR prep

Major changed officially.
Need very good grades in EngrMech and Physics.
Debate is going well but takes a lot of time.
Church retreat this weekend - it'll be nice to not be debating for a weekend!
Mommy and Daddy are out here in two weeks for FED or something but I'll get to see them :)
Emotionally worn...

WAMI today. Like a SAMI except on Wednesday lol. And then I leave tomorrow for Missouri with debate. It's going to be exciting.

Still praying a lot about relationships and such. It's a good time...yeah.

So confused.
Dave and Josh.
Josh will be here for 3 years.
Dave will be here just for this year.
I like them both equally.
What to do?
Life sucks.

I need to start behaving more like a proper lady. I feel kinda bad for Josh cause I keep changing the way I do things and stuff... Like, I'll be super nice in private and in public, I'm kinda mean, etc. And I don't like it. It's hard to change though...

I don't know what I'll do but I'll figure something out...

You want a Proverbs 31 woman?
Well I want a Titus 1 man.

The academic year is going well thus far. However, at this point in time, I've reached a minor crisis in my life direction.

I love being on the debate team but I despise the time commitment it requires. I want to be able to hang out with my friends, go on church retreats, have my weekends to myself and I can't - because I'm in debate. Almost all of my weekends are spent debating or doing my homework so I don't fall behind. It's quite depressing and I'm rather concerned...

Additionally, I'm majoring in Systems Engineering: Information Systems right now but I'm really wondering about my major. I have always wanted to do Mechanical Engineering and I love that sort of thing. Sure my grades aren't the best but idk... I think I'd be happier doing that. I'm going to make a decision at the end of the semester though based on what my grades are in my compsci class and in my engrmech class. I mean, if I'm not doing so aweseomely in engr mech, I'm not going to switch to that major, lol. It'll be interesting to see anyway...

Also, based on how my grades are, I'll decide if I'm staying on the debate team or not. I mean, if my grades are super low, I'm leaving the team. If they're decent, idk...I'll figure something out.

Life continues. I'm sitting tons of CQ right now because I don't have a lot of debate stuff going on. Once the debate year starts, I'll be focused more on the other stuff - like debate and homework. :)

I realize now that I have been quite negligent in posting information regarding my dramatic comedy of a life but I hope to make up for that in some small way with this lovely note. So, my life.

In May, I had my finals and they all went relatively well. I finished up the semester and stayed off all probations (yay!). Unfortunately, my GPA wasn't as high as I wanted it to be so I have a study schedule to follow for the fall. I sat CQ during graduation and left two days later on leave.

For the month of June, I was at home primarily. I spent a fantastic time going to Rita's, the mall and basically, all around, being awesome haha... Towards the end of the month (24th?), I returned to USAFA and entered the Soaring program where I flew TG-10 Blaniks for 14 flights and had a blast.

In July, I began Global Engagement where I went through a mock deployment. I had a fantastic time and took pictures posted on facebook. I also participated in Combat Survival Training (or the Cadet Starvation Training). I'm not sure how much weight I lost but I do know that a week later, fully clothed, I still weighed less than I did before I started and undressed hahaha! I had a decent time. The ruck was not unmanageably heavy but it was annoying at times. The evasion part was better because we only had one point to go to instead of five or six. It was interesting to say the least but I do not wish to repeat it hahahaha.

Now that August has started, I have a few briefings today, yesterday and tomorrow. School starts on Thursday as does debate practice. I have my debate schedule for the next year and...there goes my social life. I'm travelling almost every weekend to all across the country (which is marvelous) and I can almost see my GPA slipping unless I keep my butt in gear. There will be no slacking off this semester. I refuse to suffer a low GPA again. My goal is Dean's List and that requires a 3.0.

That's pretty much an update. I'm in my new squadron: CS-06. It's pretty awesome. Life continues to go on and that's my life...

More later.

I love college, aaaayyyyyy!

I bake cookies and do laundry every Sunday.

It's lots of fun.

Debate's going well.
AAS is going awesomely.
USAFA guys are major gentlemen. It's quite delightful.
Considering changing my major...

Yay Texas Tech.
Yay debate.

I want to go home.

So I survived Recognition :) Awesome time, really. It went very well... I pretty much died but it was good. It was a great time, overall. I'm very pleased with myself...

I'm in Lubbock, TX now competing at the National Parlimentary Debate Association Nationals. It's going to be an interesting time and I'm kinda nervous but it'll be good overall.

And I wanted a change.
So I chopped all my hair off.
Fun times, right?
:P

Recognition

So, recognition is in two days. I'm massively nervous but I'm sure I'll do well. It'll suck...but yeah. Then I'll be recognized and done. :)

Annnnyway, life continues.
Chemistry class coming up.

So I *need* to go to more training sessions or I will die come recognition haha... yeah, I'm way out of shape.

Although it might have something to do with the amount of candy/chocolate I ate today - probably shouldn't've done that...

Calc went well. :)
BS GR tomorrow - ughhhhh....

Life continues.

No reserves.
No retreats.
No regrets.

Caleb's here :)
NCLS is going well...kinda boring... I fell asleep (sort of) in a briefing thing...so yeah. But another one was awesome and it was absolutely incredible!! :)
Doing very well in French and Calc 2.

I'm very, very happy.