I need to start behaving more like a proper lady. I feel kinda bad for Josh cause I keep changing the way I do things and stuff... Like, I'll be super nice in private and in public, I'm kinda mean, etc. And I don't like it. It's hard to change though...

I don't know what I'll do but I'll figure something out...

You want a Proverbs 31 woman?
Well I want a Titus 1 man.

The academic year is going well thus far. However, at this point in time, I've reached a minor crisis in my life direction.

I love being on the debate team but I despise the time commitment it requires. I want to be able to hang out with my friends, go on church retreats, have my weekends to myself and I can't - because I'm in debate. Almost all of my weekends are spent debating or doing my homework so I don't fall behind. It's quite depressing and I'm rather concerned...

Additionally, I'm majoring in Systems Engineering: Information Systems right now but I'm really wondering about my major. I have always wanted to do Mechanical Engineering and I love that sort of thing. Sure my grades aren't the best but idk... I think I'd be happier doing that. I'm going to make a decision at the end of the semester though based on what my grades are in my compsci class and in my engrmech class. I mean, if I'm not doing so aweseomely in engr mech, I'm not going to switch to that major, lol. It'll be interesting to see anyway...

Also, based on how my grades are, I'll decide if I'm staying on the debate team or not. I mean, if my grades are super low, I'm leaving the team. If they're decent, idk...I'll figure something out.

Life continues. I'm sitting tons of CQ right now because I don't have a lot of debate stuff going on. Once the debate year starts, I'll be focused more on the other stuff - like debate and homework. :)

I realize now that I have been quite negligent in posting information regarding my dramatic comedy of a life but I hope to make up for that in some small way with this lovely note. So, my life.

In May, I had my finals and they all went relatively well. I finished up the semester and stayed off all probations (yay!). Unfortunately, my GPA wasn't as high as I wanted it to be so I have a study schedule to follow for the fall. I sat CQ during graduation and left two days later on leave.

For the month of June, I was at home primarily. I spent a fantastic time going to Rita's, the mall and basically, all around, being awesome haha... Towards the end of the month (24th?), I returned to USAFA and entered the Soaring program where I flew TG-10 Blaniks for 14 flights and had a blast.

In July, I began Global Engagement where I went through a mock deployment. I had a fantastic time and took pictures posted on facebook. I also participated in Combat Survival Training (or the Cadet Starvation Training). I'm not sure how much weight I lost but I do know that a week later, fully clothed, I still weighed less than I did before I started and undressed hahaha! I had a decent time. The ruck was not unmanageably heavy but it was annoying at times. The evasion part was better because we only had one point to go to instead of five or six. It was interesting to say the least but I do not wish to repeat it hahahaha.

Now that August has started, I have a few briefings today, yesterday and tomorrow. School starts on Thursday as does debate practice. I have my debate schedule for the next year and...there goes my social life. I'm travelling almost every weekend to all across the country (which is marvelous) and I can almost see my GPA slipping unless I keep my butt in gear. There will be no slacking off this semester. I refuse to suffer a low GPA again. My goal is Dean's List and that requires a 3.0.

That's pretty much an update. I'm in my new squadron: CS-06. It's pretty awesome. Life continues to go on and that's my life...

More later.